A few days ago, the cats dug up the business card of a woman whom I went out with once or twice some months back. She was a cool person, and attractive for other reasons, too; but we knew from the beginning that it wasn't going to work romantically because we wanted different things from a relationship (marriage and children were high on her present list of priorities, and I'm just not there yet).
We enjoyed the time we spent together, though, so I was a bit disappointed for myself when an old flame walked back into her life, and even more so when she then dropped off the face of the earth.
The competing fondness of friendship and hurt of - abandonment? - resurfaced with her card. Do I want to call her? I am curious as to how things worked out for her. I wonder if she is now engaged, or even married, and if she is pregnant.
At the same time, I wonder if I'd might prefer her to say that she was single again. It isn't that my wish for her to be happy, including marriage and child(ren), is false, but I guess my own needs and desires are more immediate, at present.
There's also the possibility that, if I reached her voicemail, she might not return my call. She did drop off the face of the earth, after all.
So, each evening since the card showed up, I've debated whether to call her or not until it's too late in the day to call, and then I abandon the issue for another 20 hours. Today I noticed that her card seems to have vanished again. Just as well, I suppose.
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I say, she made her feelings plain, so let it go. Plenty more fish in the sea.
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